bITS 'N CHUNKS
I told y'all I didn't mind making a spectacle of myself, see above. Anyway.
Thanks to many years of data entry & not properly taking care of my hands even before then, I have the grip of a child and the hand strength of an even weaker child. In other words, bullshit.
Yes, it's joint pain and it's actually not that bad and fixable, but it's made me pretty possessive with what I spend my time doing. If I don't hold something heavy for you I'm not trying to be rude but likely I literally cannot. It doesn't take very much humidity for me to go from Feelin' Fine to Charlie Horse in Every Finger.
Naturally, you can imagine how this has affected my writing choices. I noticed over time I cut down on a lot of purple prose not just because my preferences changed but also I was eager to get to the damn point before my hands started swelling up. This was back when I was doing half/half paper writing and digital; then I switched to all digital and the habit carried over. I find myself over embellishing a lot because I feel bad that I can't do long stretches of inventive writing anymore. I take frequent breaks to do some thumb exercises.
The pain and frustration of my lack of mobility in my hands and fingers crops up quite a bit as a theme for me too. Pain just kind of pisses me off.
I love the feel of writing on notebook paper and filling up a big journal or five subject college rule with my tiny ass cursive and ludicrous stories to type up later. I love being able to get my ideas down immediately. But as I work in increasingly secure & paper free places, that becomes less of a reality for me. And I was spending more time rotating my wrists and rubbing them than scribbling.
So after a while I was told about Evernote. I think I've detailed my relationship with Evernote. But anyway, being able to write on my phone was great. It was essentially the same thing as paper for me and I could use a stylus on my tablet. I got pretty good with my thumbs.
Until I wore my thumbs down by typing on decidedly un-ergonomic tablets and phones not suited for that purpose. Not very punk.
So I've still been largely computer writing when I can but I would like to get back to pen and paper because I still feel like it just worked for me, despite its inconveniences. They do make writing tools and aids for people like me that have a hard time. And, a lot of the options aren't terribly expensive either. The one I'm most interested in is the ring pen model, which takes a different approach to finding ways to shove the barrel of the pen or body of the pencil against soft fleshy parts that probably already hurt.
Sitting versus standing is a big part of it, too. Surprising no one, from working at office jobs with often inconsiderate and uncomfortable chairs (and only doing so much to remedy it myself), my back and legs aren't in too good condition these days either. The main appeal of paper & pen writing is I could comfortably lay down and still do a little work. Mobile writing is the same way, but not quite as comfortable or flexible.
You might wonder, why not try out the voice to text software? I do use those but not for complete writing, not even for drafts really. If it's accessible for you I do recommend trying it. But as for me, I'm like two notches below Truman Capote and I do not like the sound of my own voice even in my own head, so I would just rather not.
Ia! If you've come this far, you're either looking for weird or you know you've found it...